New life

To be honest, I forgot I had this blog. I got it confused with my Tumblr (which I also forgot I had) and in my head, they were the same thing. I realized I had one when I went to comment on UhhSandy's blog and I didn't have to be anonymous! Ha!

Well, three years is a long time. I got kicked out, lived on the streets, came back home, my dad left for good, my parents divorced after being separated for fifteen years, enrolled in a Korean taekwondo academy, graduated high school, went to college, was kicked out of college, went to rehab, was accepted to another college, and am now trying to navigate life after all of that.

If I didn't have taekwondo, I'd have killed myself a LONG time ago. It's the best thing that's ever happened to me. I've got a family now. Isn't that weird? I'm an actual adult and I just NOW have a solidified family instead of an obscure one that's spread out. It's a bunch of really wonderful people, no one hates each other, and I feel wanted. Yeah, I've still got a long way to go, but the dojang (taekwondo academy, I refer to it as this and will always refer to it as this from here on out) is the heart at the center of my life. It's my home base, it's the place I go to when nothing seems alright, it's the place that fixes everything that's going wrong.

My family is: my mom, my mom's niece, my mom's sister, my mom's brother, my mom's sister's son and daughter, my Grand Master, my Grand Master's son (Master K), my other Master (Master H), my assistant taekwondo instructor (Captain N), two black belts (A and H), and my Grand Master's wife. If I forgot anyone, I'll tell you about them later.

My Grand Master. He's the most wonderful person you'll ever meet. Everyone finds him intimidating, but he's just quiet and doesn't speak very good English. I'm one of the only people who can understand him totally, and that's only because he's the person I spend the most time around. He's the father figure I always wanted, and always deserved.

I'm not a strict Goth anymore. There's other facets of my personalities. I'm also a punk, a poet, a Kpopper (you will hear SO MUCH about Kpop from me), an activist, so much more, and as always, a non-conformist with a penchant for protesting.

This is my life. Watch if you want, but I'll make noise either way.