I'm not handicapped, I'm handicapable

I just want to get something off of my chest today. I bumped into someone today, and I quickly signed that I was sorry. The guy looked confused, and I motioned using clear motions, an x over my mouth and shaking my head, indicating that I can't speak. He scoffed at me, looked me up and down, and went on his way. He joined his friends, while I joined mine. I could hear the guy making fun of me, saying, "You see that weird goth girl over there? She's deaf, talk about a freak." I signed to my deaf friend what happened, asking what should I do, and she marched right over there and said, out loud, that I was mute, and most certainly not deaf. The guy looked shocked , and stammered out a whispered apology, while I signed to my friend what I wanted to say. I signed: "Why are you just now apologizing? When you thought I was deaf, you made fun of me, why? Because you thought I wouldn't be able to hear you? I would have respected you more if you had made fun of me for just being goth."

I guess the thing that bothers me the most is that I'm not completely mute. I'm selectively mute. Selective mutism is where in stressful situations (public places, school, etc.) I shut down, and physically cannot speak. When I'm in school, I can't talk to anyone but my friends, and select teachers, other times I sign, because it is what is most comforatable for me.

I don't look at my disabilities as a weakness, I look at them as strengths. I don't like when people feel bad for me, I'd rather they be proud of me of what I can do, rather than what I can't. And I know lots of other disabled kids who feel the same.

Sorry about the strang rant today.

Great Site

While I do get on Facebook a lot, there is a social networking site I like more. It is called Gothers.com and it's a very laid back, very cool place for goths to come, meet new people, and just be around others like them. Your profile can be as private as you want it to be. There's a dashboard on the homepage that everyone on the site can see and talk to each other even if they're not on your friends list.

One reason I like it more than facebook is there's almost zero drama, and everyone just says how they feel without fear of judgement. And, also, there is literally fifteen people having a cyber staring contest. I couldn't stop laughung when I saw that on the dashboard, and then I joined in! =) yeah, I'm not ashamed to admit it, I'm a goth dork!

So, anyway, if you like meeting new goths, or just some really interesting people, you should check other Gothers.com.

Be well, darklings!

Hello =)

Hello! *waves* How are you? I started this blog because I wanted to share my experiences as one of the only Goths in my town.

I don't classify myself as any one "type" of goth. I flit in and out of a few, mostly Romantic, Metal, a lil bit of Cyber, and sometimes Perky.

As soon as I can figure out how to put pictures on here, I will.

So, I hope you enjoy my blog, and get something useful out of it.